urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kylz78Kylz78Kylz78Kylz782009-11-05T06:39:24Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kylz78:2225Fear2009-11-05T06:38:44Z2009-11-05T06:39:24Z<br /><strong>Fear [feer]<br /></strong>–noun<br />1.<br />a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.<br />2.<br />a specific instance of or propensity for such a feeling: an abnormal fear of heights.<br />3.<br />that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid. <br />4.<br />to regard with fear; be afraid of.<br />5.<br />to have fear; be afraid.<br /><br /><strong>Fear</strong> of the unknown.<br /><strong>Afraid</strong> I've made a terrible mistake.<br /><strong>Scared</strong> I'll never have the chance to be a wife (again) and mother.<br /><strong>Worried</strong> I have ruined not only mine, but someone else's life.<br /><strong>Concerned</strong> I am a bad influence on others & will end up pushing them away.<br /><strong>Anxious </strong>That I am not nearly as strong as others believe I am.<br /><strong>Frightened </strong>Of being alone.<br /><strong>Dreading</strong> The unknown of what tomorrow may bring.<br /><br />The should have/ could have/ would have's - always making me second guess my every action.<br />Trying to keep a brave face for public viewing- whilst inside I am an emotional rollercoaster.<br />Realising that -yes, I really am standing on my own two feet now, like a toddler learning to walk, it's all about baby steps.<br />So very exciting, daunting yet so freakingly exciting all at once.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kylz78:2030Glue2009-11-05T06:35:01Z2009-11-05T06:35:01Z<br /><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> <u>Glue</u></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I know what you say when I’m not around,</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I hear it from all the others.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">You wait – I’ll get my own</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I’ll show you what I’m made of.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">One of us will fall,</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">And what a sight it will be</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">How much you wanna bet</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">It ain’t gonna be me.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Remember what they say about glass houses?</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Well it’s time to put the rocks away.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Stop blowing smoke up my arse,</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Man up and tell me the truth</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Otherwise, shut the fuck up.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">No-one thinks you’re funny</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">No-one thinks you’re cool...</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Matter of fact</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Pretty much everyone thinks you’re a tool.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">You’re a scumbag, a cunt, a loser, a liar.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">Truth be told,</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I wouldn’t piss on you if you were on fire.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I hate you, I hate you, I hate you</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt">I wish you would die.</p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kylz78:1751Black Dog2009-09-28T23:19:27Z2009-09-28T23:19:27Z"Revenge" ~ Mindless Self Indulgence<p style="text-align: left; margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Sitting.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Waiting.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Staring, eyes unblinking.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />It lurks in the shadows, </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Out of visions range.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />You sense it,</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Feel it, taste it, </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Know it’s coming.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />See it dancing in the shadows.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Your heart starts pounding.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">It launches,</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Attacks,</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Biting, snarling,</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Ripping, tearing,</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">You heart, your soul</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Darkness surrounds</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />You fight, you yell.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">The struggle begins.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Sobbing, weary.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Battered, broken.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />You look up to see</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">A glimmer of light on the way.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">A sign of hope, of love.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">It stalks away.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Slightly weaker, beaten again.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />It prepares for the next round.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Knowing, taunting.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">....</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080">Sitting.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"><br />Waiting.</span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"><span style="color: #000080"> </span></p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p><p style="margin: 0cm 0cm 10pt"> </p>